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Here’s how my life has been in the last few months:
1. I’ve been feeling a lot of pain in my carpals — finger bones, to you. Whenever it’s raining and it’s cold, that’s when it’s most painful. I also feel it in my knees and occasionally my calves. I had myself checked but I’m negative for rheumatoid arthritis.
2. I’ve talked to at least three agents about life insurance. For the first time in the nine years I’ve been working, I feel the moral need for insurance, in the event that I have to leave this mortal coil.
3. Parents are dying. Three of my officemates buried their fathers. One officemate has a mother on dialysis in the hospital.
4. My father was diagnosed with cardiomegaly or an enlarged heart. Apparently, he’s been taking in too much water and the edema is causing pressure on his chest which is why he has a hard time breathing. He registered a pulse rate of 132. Normal pulse rate is 90. He’s better now but it was a major, major household scare. It still is.
5. I shouldn’t've been too worried since my mother was also diagnosed with an enlarged heart a few years back due to hypertension. Ain’t it romantic of them to be so compatible to have even the same illness? So now I have two parents with two enlarged hearts who can’t keep their cups of rice in check.
6. Almost all my guy friends — considering I have so few — have hypertension and they’re barely into their thirties.
7. Some of my girl friends and my girl friends’ girl friends either have (a) myoma ;(b) breast lumps or worse, (c) breast cancer.
8. While in the past I never took any vitamins, I now have three bottles on my cabinet: a multivitamin, vitamin E and calcium (for the painful carpals mentioned in item #1).
9. I can’t stay up later than 12mn during a night out.
10. I don’t know who the hell the Jonas Brothers are.
As you approach this age, you realize that so many things are inevitable. So many ugly, painful things are inevitable. People who used to be the pillars you could lean on are deteriorating right before your eyes. But at the same time fragile little ones are growing up and will soon outgrow you.
This is so against my philosophy on positivity but I know I can find a way to go full circle.
