Blog Response
A friend blogged about me. How awesome is that??? http://afafilife.blogs.friendster.com/a_fafi_life/2008/06/positivity.html
She called me annoying but it ended on a high note so it’s all good.
How have I been annoying? Simple. Just staying positive.
There’s something very romantic and mysterious about anger and sadness and bitterness and their by-products, envy and jealousy. The best characters in books and in movies have been about very angry people. The best artists and scientists have been deeply disturbed individuals, some to the point of ending their own lives.
In fact, I haven’t written a good solid prose in about a year. There was a full year when all I could do was write. And everyting I wrote about were very bitter encounters, recollections of heartaches, dialogues with people I never got to say but have been dying to say. And based on my very limited fan-base, I wrote quite well.
I kind of turned off that anger about a year ago. I just embraced everything in my life, became more thankful, more prayerful. If two events, for example, happened at the same day: Event A - my boss scolds the crap out of me in front of forty other people in our department; and Event B - I bump into an old friend in the mall, I will choose to celebrate Event B and just file away Event A. When in the past, even if somebody gave me a million dollars the same day my boss screams at me, I wouldn’t care.
What’s my point? My point is dark feelings make for awesome fiction. And I dare say they belong there. Harboring dark feelings everyday will get you nowhere.
Scratch that. It will get you somewhere. At the nearest McDonald’s making you order large fries and a coke float just to make you feel better.
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In relation to my theory on positivity, I have also come to embrace Cheap Thrills —- small, often pathetic perks of life that usually involve Hollywood, the TV set and the internet.
For example, I have not had those heartbreaking feelings of loneliness because I’m too busy with the following:
1. Checking up everyday on latest X-files news, like if David or Gillian (who is pregnant!) have sat on Leno’s/Conan’s/Letterman’s couch
2. Checking up on Prison Break news and the return of Dr. Sara Tancredi who was supposed to have had her head chopped off but is apparently alive. (And you thought only GMA can give you crap like that).
3. Checking up on American Idol’s Michael Johns on youtube, the MJ forums and his fan sites on the upcoming Idol Tour. The man is on my phone, my PC, my media player, my thoughts. He serenades me whenever I want to and he performs on youtube anytime of the day. God bless the internet.
You can call me pathetic but I’m definitely not sad.
